Friday, 26 May 2017

Sun, sun, sun!

This is just going to be a real quickie, but I thought it would be worthwhile sitting down and explaining what's going on at the moment. At present, it's Friday night, which means that half term has officially begun! I'm really excited because where I live we're experiencing a bit of a heatwave and the temperature hit twenty seven degrees earlier!

I'm using this break as a time to focus on my own happiness and to do the things that make me smile. That's why I've set myself a few small goals to reach over half term. These include: going out on my skates, meditating, doing yoga, reading, taking pretty pictures, drinking lots of water and writing in the sun!

I'm also going to try and avoid Facebook as I don't believe it is having a positive effect on my happiness and is probably the biggest tool for procrastinating. I have however started to use Instagram and Pinterest again for posting and sharing pictures. Make sure to drop your account names in the comments so that I can follow you! :)

What are your half term plans?

Forever health and happiness,
Marti xxx

Friday, 19 May 2017

Do you want the truth or something beautiful?

I felt very sceptical about posting this piece of writing, yet I wanted to bring forth the fact that life isn't always sugar sweet and iced with pink icing. There are times where life will chew you up and spit you back out again- it happens to everybody and you just have to live through it. It's those times that I try not to document, for better or for worse. I've never endorsed spreading negativity on the internet but I think it's important to be honest and not sugar coat reality. 

Now that brings me to my main point: what I'm sharing with you. There's a certain individual in my life who's caused me a great deal of pain. I'm not going to explain what has happened, mostly because that's a line I don't feel comfortable crossing, but also to protect the identity of said individual. The best way I've found to deal with difficult situations is creative expression- whether that be music, drawing or writing, I always feel more in contact with my feelings afterwards.

I've decided to include a small paragraph of one of the lengthy letters I've written yet never sent to this person. It was really difficult deciding whether or not to publish this, but I trusted it would bring home how strongly your actions can hurt others. 
You’ve changed me. You’ve left a bruise on my body that will drag me down far more than any I gain smacking the ground on roller skates. They’re the kind of injury that motivates you to keep trying, to beat your personal best and greatest of all, to not give up. The bruise you’ve given me is so deep, so swollen and so painful; it brings tears to my eyes. You’ve humiliated me. Made me look weak and needy in an environment I felt safe.   

Health and happiness,
Marti xxx

Friday, 12 May 2017

A new found love for derby

I remember when I first got into skating. I was about eight and I tagged along with my big sister and her friends to the ice rink. Like anybody starting out, I wasn't very good at it and spent a lot of time either on the floor, glued to the side rail or holding somebody's hand. 

After that, I nagged my parents for a pair of skates and luckily found some at a car boot sale. They were inline skates with a buckle fastening and polka dot lining. Sure, they may have been scuffed at the toes and a little tatty but they were mine and I loved them. After a few tumbles and lots of scuffed knees, I'd nailed it and could lap the block a few times.

It's been awhile since then and up until recently, I hadn't really given skating much thought. It took until one of my friends had her 16th birthday at a roller rink that I got back into skates. It was a bit weird at first and I was slipping and sliding all over the place. I suppose it's like riding a bike: you can't forget how to do it once you've learnt but you can become a bit rusty. Within an hour or so, I got the hang of it and would even do some little tricks like jump and 'whip' another person around the track. Granted I did fall over (and knock other people over- oops!!) quite a bit, but it's all fun and games right?

It was in the that moment that I realised skating made me happy. Happy in a way I couldn't put words to. I suppose it's similar for people who love to swim, or draw or play music. In that moment you're focused, determined and infinite.

 After that, I decided skating was a hobby I wanted to pursue so I saved up and bought myself a new pair of quads. Naturally that lead to my watching of Whip It  and oh my gosh- I think I may have fallen in love with roller derby! If you're unfamiliar with the sport, here is a definition I got from good old Wikipedia:

Roller derby is a contact sport played by two teams of five members roller skating in the same direction (counterclockwise) around a track. Game play consists of a series of short match ups (jams) in which both teams designate a jammer who scores points by lapping members of the opposing team. The teams attempt to hinder the opposing jammer while assisting their own jammer—in effect, playing both offense and defense simultaneously.

You've got to be sixteen to join a league which kind of sucks, but I've contacted my local team and they said they'd be happy to have me on the next new skater intake which is September/ October time.

I just thought I'd share this with you as it's something I'm really passionate about. 
Do you have any unusual hobbies?

Health and happiness,
Marti xxx

Friday, 5 May 2017

Tiny plants growing out of sidewalk cracks

Rosie shared this on her wall and it melted my heart :)
Dear friend,

The chances are, if you're reading this, I've never met you. I've never been able to tell you that you're loved, that you're appreciated and that somebody out there is dying for you to love and appreciate them. You may not believe me, but you're a truly amazing human being. 

You're beautiful and have qualities that make you shine like the twinkling star that you are. Anybody that tells you differently obviously doesn't know their constellations. You have the kind of personality that's brimming with love and warmth-the kind that needs to be shared in a society that thrives on negativity!

You've done some mean things and hurt the people you love. You've done this because you're only human and your natural response to pain is inflicting more pain on other people. 

Wlive in a world where hate is thrown around like confetti and nobody talks about their feelings. If people were to only consider others for a moment before hurting them, maybe the world would be a better place.

My advice to you old friend would be to carry around a spare change of happiness with you wherever you go. You never know who may need it most.

Lots of love,
Marti xxx